Comeback?

I miss writing.




Perhaps it is time for some reinventing to be happening.

We will see!

oh sadness, I'm your girl.

feels like crap right now.

too much, too soon.

drugging on

I was just in my bed and I had a thought, and now it's gone. I've been in my bed and our since like three o'clock. Friday is me day. However, I have a day off tomorrow, and I have no idea what to do. Another me day? Maybe I will do some school work, but that does not appeal to me. I much prefer to do it when I must, not when I have time to spare.

Anyway, lets leave this quite rational topic of laziness, and lets focus on my crazy. Silly, foolish, unreasonable, absurd. Whatever you prefer. I love it. 5 minutes is enough to get me high. And I mean it. I am so high right now. On drugs of course. But I won't tell you the name of them. They kill me. I am telling you 5 minutes, and I'm done. I feel like going to sleep to pass the time. Boy, is my kidney killing me. I need some more of my drugs.

I really don't. Boy, am I addicted.

this IS the only way I can talk about my shit.

intelligence.

I guess I could write about everything that is wrong in my life, how I can't bring myself to do what I want to do, and how I actually don't know what I want to do. Christmas time is hard. Life is hard. Moving in, moving out, the load of studying (I'm not saying that I am studying, but avoiding it, postponing it is very hard as well), and the differences between what is real and what isn't. Being broke, financially and emotionally.

Uni Uni Uni, that's what my life is all about now, and I can't bring myself to choose what to do. This decision will affect the rest of my life, I can't take that risk! I need to know exactly what is the best path for me. Is it art, is it languages. Photography, or European Union with Spanish and French? I'll just go to stupid college.

arrrrrrrrghhh

rihanna - te amo

i hate me life

keri hilson - i like

We're officially on exam leave. It's all strange. I know we're coming back in June, but I will miss the people who left. My "now or never" didn't work, but I don't blame myself for it - I did everything I could. Maybe it's not over yet, maybe it is - it's not important anymore. The end. Right now I have to focus on exams, the target is to get A's in everything. Ha ha, yea right.

I can't believe i have such a busy schedule this week - i though we were on 'holidays' ! Tomorrow i have to go back to English to sign some papers, then college on Tuesday (doubt that), horses on Wednesday, English exam on Thursday, Friday nothing, thank god, shopping on Saturday and work on Sunday! huh. I'm sooo looking forward to shopping with my mummy on Saturday :)

Friday as well as being the last day of 5th year, it was also the day of ECA Fashion Show - and it was amazing. Especially Performance Costume, I felt like I was watching two minute fairy tales.

and the world around us won't stop turning tonight

candy station - you've got the love.mp3

This is funny : I get a job and I understand how Paulina struggles to save up money. I mean i haven't even worked a shift there, and yet i already decided what I'm going to do with the money. Oooh, saving up for our holiday is going to be tricky.

Life gets kind of boring, I feel like everything's the same. Working at McDonald's will be new, but I'm pretty sure it's not going to be something i look forward to. Ha ha. Obviously i can relate to the group on Facebook : I don't want a job, I want money. But then, I always complain its boring, and then I do nothing to change it.? I wish something happened in my life, like meeting a pirate (lets say Sparrow), who's going to take me on a nice ship and well sail away together.. a guy on a horse will do too, I'm not that bothered. Eeehh..

No matter how many times I have seen the last episode of Sex and the City I always want to cry when I see it. It's just so magical. I bet everyone wants someone like Mr Big, the big Johnny John, who goes to Paris to find Carrie, even though he doesn't know if she wants him too. Well, I do. And I hate all the bullshit people have been saying lately about the new movie - that they broke up because Carrie doesn't have a ring on. Well first of all, actually there's only one point, there never was a ring! Hopefully someone more qualified is going to write articles on msn's webpage, or at leat someone who has seen the first movie. Seriously, this annoys me so much, because everyone knows there was a SHOE not a RING. It's so obvious - she likes shoes = she has a wedding shoe, not a wedding ring.
Okay, sorry, this is my little rage against the msn's articles, ha ha. I can't wait to see the second movie!

sweeney todd's soundtrack.mp3

I'm in love. I've been in love for quite some time now. He's delicious, and his name is quite long, but I can simply narrow it down to three Johnny Jack Sweeney Todd Sparrow Depp. Not to mention me and Pola are pirates now, and we're sharing Jack between us. People think we're mad, but it's not like i care, because it's us who get to come along with Jack to the Caribbeans, not them. Haha. And now seriously, I've been watching way too much movies with Johnny. Theres nothing like dreams baby.

Easter Holidays are here, but its not like I have any plans or anything. I should maybe start revising, but of well. I'm so glad everything's finished - no more art design, no more nabs, no more prelims. Just chilling out, not thinking how close the exams are. Just lovely.

And the weather is wonderful!

me fucking encanta espaniol

I wish i was Spanish and lived in Nueva York. And i also wish for a summer house in the south of France plus to be fluent in ruski. But someone in TV once said, and I think it was the janitor in scrubs.. he said: 'Time spent wishing is time wasted.' So I'm just going to have to make it happen. Becoming Spanish might be tricky, but i guess the rest is doable.

I'm finally doing something. Well I'm making myself star doing something, but I finally feel it in me. I'm going to get that fricking shoe finished, I'll find a job, to buy a house for my shoes, and I'm going to show her what I'm made of. Bitch. The rest will just fall into place, after I do all these things. It has to.

Nothing more to say, so I'll finish off here in Johnny Quid's style. Go on, walk on, jog on, goodbye, bon voyage, fuck off .

kinda busy

I simply have no time. I know posting on this blog takes a while of my useless, yet busy life, but i can't do anything not-so-useless right now.

I wanted this weekend to go perfectly, but since the weather is hopeless, we couldn't do anything we planned. No films, no pictures, no shes, no nothing. I went shopping yesterday, only to hear my heart breaking 1000 times. Into little tiny pieces. I'm heartbroken because there is so much that I'd like to buy. I can't even talk about that anymore. One thing for sure, next weekend I'm going back to get that gorgeous bag.

I find myself liking my new "hobby". I know it is bad, and illegal, but i must say, it does feel nice. Tomorrow?

Yesterday before falling asleep I came up with a perfect story for English. I'm not sure if we have to do a creative story on our prelims, but if we do, I'm writing something like it. It is nothing to be honest, but it just will be real.

Cut my hair much. And look terrible. As always. Ohhh, fuck it.

hands down

With eyes shut, it's you I'm thinking of.

Aye shit happens. Why is everyone so excited about 2010? Nothing is gonna change except you'll have to remember to put the correct date on the paper. I just don't feel like I've finished 2009 yet. There were so many things I wanted to do. Shit shit shit. At least I did something.

I hope you all have a Supertastic New Year, and I hope you all have a good time on New Year's Eve.

Absofuckinglutely I'd say. But no.

drakeovitz

you've got the love.mp3

The snow is fantastic, however, it also causes a lot of trouble. Today, for example, i couldn't get to the stable by bus, because they decided to go part route. I had to walk soooooo long to get there, slipping every five steps. Was it worth it? Well i don't know, we don't actually ride much now that it's so slippery, but as long as the horses have something to eat and drink everyone's happy. I've been to the horses on Sunday, on Monday, and today, my whole body is sore from carrying all the water bottles from the house to the stable, getting the haylage up to the stable from down the hill (the car can't get up cause of the snow), etc. I have 10 bruises on my legs, and I can't remember when i hit myself.. Okay enough whining.

I can't wait for Christmas. The presents are waiting under the tree, all I know that two of them are for me : D I know for a fact they are from my brothers. I didn't know they were going to get me something, since they don't even wish me happy birthday. Who are they, and what have they done with my brothers, ha ha. Seriously, when I saw the presents I was sooo surprised, and also pissed because that meant i had to get them something too. I actually like what i got them, and I think they will like it too. The best present I bought was for my dad, i got him SUDOKU TOILET PAPER, the one from urban outfitters. Ha ha ha, we'll see if he's as smart as he says he is, smart ass.

are you kidding me?

y o u are so full of c r a p boy..

today was torture. i went uptown with the girls, and there was just so much stuff i want to have... no i don't want them, i need them. after a while i came up with a thought that there should be this only one shop, with a few things in it, so everybody could wear the same stuff.. but when i pictured it in my head, i didn't quite like it. i guess life would be awfuly boring, and it is better to feel miserable, than bored. with no one around to blame my misery on, i decided to blame our government. yes. they were supposed to pay me for school today, they said they would, and they didn't. ugh! i'm not some crazy person, or a really materialistic one, it's just when i actually go shopping, i like to buy things i like. i'd rather spend the day horse riding, than shopping, and that is the truth.

i gotta study some espanol, and draw for art. C U guys (:

my whining

lifes shite

the only one thing im looking forward to is finally getting the money (ive got a long shopping list, and so far, i havent done anything to complete it), 14th of November (JIMMY CHOO!!!), christmas(new camera), and Metric concert - which is tomorrow, so i dont really mind the wait .. although it reminds me, i should get some sleep, is going to be a long day.

ghost girl

I'm a ghost girl.

And I'm haunting in my own world.

It's fun, not to answer to no one.

I smile because I know you feel me inside.

Touch this, can you feel it.

Just a nearness.

Laura <3

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I t ' s b e e n a l o n g t i m e .